One Of Those Days
Damn, now you scared him. Jesus Michael, you gotta do better than this man. "Sorry about that, I uhh, I'm scared as hell to be honest. I don't know what to say or do, an-" Oh damn, he wasn't the only one nervous. Michael eased up a bit. Yeah, this was pretty awkward, but they say that's the fun part. I think. Maybe they say if it's awkward its' gonna end bad. Fuck if Mike cared. Jonathan felt the same way, it's all that mattered. "Yeah, I know what you mean man, I been askin' myself on the way up here if this was a dream." His lower lip quivered. Fuck, he's acting like such a dork. "So uh, we ready to head out?" Michael was anxious, Jonathan was anxious, maybe it'd be better if they just broke the ice and got to the theater.
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Jonathan was relieved that Michael was changing the subject. It was making things less awkward between them. Going to see a movie. Hopefully they will have a great time together. "Y-Yeah. Let's go and have a great time together. I can't wait to watch the movie." He nodded with a cheerful grin.
He moved with Michael as they head over to his motorcyle. Wait.... He was now feeling a bit hesitant. He was hoping that this wasn't a mistake. Ah, well. If everything goes badly then maybe it would be his fault. He should stop thinking about the negative side and think about the positive side. "Hey.... Do you remember all those parties that we used to go to in the past?"
He moved with Michael as they head over to his motorcyle. Wait.... He was now feeling a bit hesitant. He was hoping that this wasn't a mistake. Ah, well. If everything goes badly then maybe it would be his fault. He should stop thinking about the negative side and think about the positive side. "Hey.... Do you remember all those parties that we used to go to in the past?"
Michael started walking to his bike, with Jonathan at his side. No way, no fucking way. This was not happening, this had to be a dream. Nothing goes this well. There's no way this is real. Michael was arguably, freaking the fuck out right now. Silently of course. He was glad he was going on the date, but fuck he hoped he didn't fuck anything up. It'd be pretty awkward to mess up a date with your best friend.
He kept telling himself not to worry, and quit being so negative, but as he walked closer to the bike with Jonathan, his heart started sinking. Nothing was wrong but, he was just scared. He felt like he could've puked at any moment out of nervousness. Then Jonathan spoke up.
Those parties? Damn, Michael didn't care for them that much to be honest. Sure they were fun, lots of people, all there to have a good time but, Michael wasn't much of a drinker, or a smoker. In the sense he never done either, never cared to. Maybe it helped because he was the designated driver? Still, he never cared for the scent of alcohol or cigarette smoke. He'd always walk outside when it got too much for him. He never told Jonathan that he didn't like them though. He still couldn't bring himself to. "Ehh, they're alright." He shrugged nervously. "But in all honesty, you're the only reason I went to 'em." It's not like Michael's lying. He really did only go to the parties because Jonathan wanted him to. "They're pretty fun though, but I wouldn't go to 'em alone."
Michael was still scared. He knew it, Jonathan knew it. Hell they were probably both equally afraid, but Jonathan knew Michael was even more so. He had to. His breath rattled. "Man, you have no idea how scared I am right now." He had to laugh, but it was true. "I'm not afraid if my parents find out or anythin', I'm past that. I'm just afraid of messin' things up." He paused. "I don't wanna mess things up between us." Maybe if he told him he was scared and why, Jonathan would help. He decided to turn towards a more upbeat topic. "So uhh, yeah, let's see that movie."
He kept telling himself not to worry, and quit being so negative, but as he walked closer to the bike with Jonathan, his heart started sinking. Nothing was wrong but, he was just scared. He felt like he could've puked at any moment out of nervousness. Then Jonathan spoke up.
Those parties? Damn, Michael didn't care for them that much to be honest. Sure they were fun, lots of people, all there to have a good time but, Michael wasn't much of a drinker, or a smoker. In the sense he never done either, never cared to. Maybe it helped because he was the designated driver? Still, he never cared for the scent of alcohol or cigarette smoke. He'd always walk outside when it got too much for him. He never told Jonathan that he didn't like them though. He still couldn't bring himself to. "Ehh, they're alright." He shrugged nervously. "But in all honesty, you're the only reason I went to 'em." It's not like Michael's lying. He really did only go to the parties because Jonathan wanted him to. "They're pretty fun though, but I wouldn't go to 'em alone."
Michael was still scared. He knew it, Jonathan knew it. Hell they were probably both equally afraid, but Jonathan knew Michael was even more so. He had to. His breath rattled. "Man, you have no idea how scared I am right now." He had to laugh, but it was true. "I'm not afraid if my parents find out or anythin', I'm past that. I'm just afraid of messin' things up." He paused. "I don't wanna mess things up between us." Maybe if he told him he was scared and why, Jonathan would help. He decided to turn towards a more upbeat topic. "So uhh, yeah, let's see that movie."
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Jonathan was surprised by Michael's response about the parties. He only went because of Jonathan? That was kind of.... sweet. Jonathan felt himself going red in the face. Jeez, he really needed to stop acting so weird and awkwardly. "Hey, Michael. Thanks for going with me. You didn't have to go. I noticed you didn't really like them that much. I was going through a.... stage at those parties. Yeah, I'm not very proud about it. But I always did have more fun with you there!" He was blabbering himself now and Michael was normally the more talkative of the two. Jonathan might not be that smart but he noticed when Michael would go outside to get away from those noisy parties and Jonathan would always go after him so that they could leave. "You don't think I was a selfish ass for taking you to them, do you?"
Jonathan noticed that Michael looked like he was in a worse state than him. Holy moly. Jonathan was stunned when Michael announced that he was afraid of messing up their date. Okay, okay. So they were both scared of screwing things up. Jonathan had to say something to hopefully calm Michael down. "Hey, man. You won't mess anything up. Neither of us will.... Okay? Besides the first date is always nerve-wrecking." Jonathan was silent for a few moments. "....Let's hope that Ghostface won't kill us during the movie!" He laughed as he was trying to lighten the mood between them. He normally sucked at jokes. But at least he could try.
Referencing one of the Scream movies? Nice job, Jonathan.
Jonathan noticed that Michael looked like he was in a worse state than him. Holy moly. Jonathan was stunned when Michael announced that he was afraid of messing up their date. Okay, okay. So they were both scared of screwing things up. Jonathan had to say something to hopefully calm Michael down. "Hey, man. You won't mess anything up. Neither of us will.... Okay? Besides the first date is always nerve-wrecking." Jonathan was silent for a few moments. "....Let's hope that Ghostface won't kill us during the movie!" He laughed as he was trying to lighten the mood between them. He normally sucked at jokes. But at least he could try.
Referencing one of the Scream movies? Nice job, Jonathan.
"Ya'know, if Ghostface came at you, it'd be a damn short movie. Moment he pops out, I'd fuck him up for ya'. Take that fuckin' mask of his an' shove it down his tr'oat." Michael laughed, Jonathan's joke may have not been the best one, Scream hasn't been relevant since last year, but hey, it worked, it gave Michael good material. As Michael and Jonathan walked to his bike, he felt himself go into autopilot, while his mind rationalized everything around him.
On one hand, Michael wasn't sure what Jonathan saw in him. Michael wasn't pretty, he wasn't that smart. If you asked anyone else, his hair was probably the most atrocious thing next his personality (Captain Rhodes was torn in half because of the same exact hairstyle!) His voice was gravelly, annoying, screechy. He laughed like a damn hyena. The only colorful thing about him was his Son of Mars Bel-Airs he wore, and quite frankly, Michael didn't know what Jonathan saw in him. He'd seen the boys Jonathan partied with. He wasn't nearly as fit as them. They were all way better looking than Michael could ever hope to be. Yet, Jonathan likes him above them all?! Jonathan deserved better, he wanted to tell him, but...
On the other, Michael felt relieved he was able to tell Jonathan everything. He had just wanted a talk really. None of this was really planned nor expected. But after this? Nothing was gonna be the same, he knew it, Jonathan knew it, but that was quite alright. He had only expected to just go to the movies, have a good time, maybe vent about a couple issues, but not this. Still, that was quite alright.
There was catharsis, and there was this. Catharsis to Michael, is the sense of dragging his knuckles across some rat bastard's teeth for talking shit about him, that was cathartic. But this, he didn't know what word to use for it. Maybe the feeling that you were about to drown, and had just managed to reach air in the last second. Actually, it's more like the feeling you are about to drown, but someone ELSE helps you to the surface. Yeah, that's a pretty good way to describe it. Whatever word he couldn't think of, he could always think of Jonathan saving him.
They were by the Bike. Michael grabbed the helmet meant for Jonathan and handed it to him. "I'm glad we're actually doing this. I don't really know what to say but that." He paused. " 'Thinkin' this is the best day of my life right now." Michael wasn't lying. This really was the best day of his life.
On one hand, Michael wasn't sure what Jonathan saw in him. Michael wasn't pretty, he wasn't that smart. If you asked anyone else, his hair was probably the most atrocious thing next his personality (Captain Rhodes was torn in half because of the same exact hairstyle!) His voice was gravelly, annoying, screechy. He laughed like a damn hyena. The only colorful thing about him was his Son of Mars Bel-Airs he wore, and quite frankly, Michael didn't know what Jonathan saw in him. He'd seen the boys Jonathan partied with. He wasn't nearly as fit as them. They were all way better looking than Michael could ever hope to be. Yet, Jonathan likes him above them all?! Jonathan deserved better, he wanted to tell him, but...
On the other, Michael felt relieved he was able to tell Jonathan everything. He had just wanted a talk really. None of this was really planned nor expected. But after this? Nothing was gonna be the same, he knew it, Jonathan knew it, but that was quite alright. He had only expected to just go to the movies, have a good time, maybe vent about a couple issues, but not this. Still, that was quite alright.
There was catharsis, and there was this. Catharsis to Michael, is the sense of dragging his knuckles across some rat bastard's teeth for talking shit about him, that was cathartic. But this, he didn't know what word to use for it. Maybe the feeling that you were about to drown, and had just managed to reach air in the last second. Actually, it's more like the feeling you are about to drown, but someone ELSE helps you to the surface. Yeah, that's a pretty good way to describe it. Whatever word he couldn't think of, he could always think of Jonathan saving him.
They were by the Bike. Michael grabbed the helmet meant for Jonathan and handed it to him. "I'm glad we're actually doing this. I don't really know what to say but that." He paused. " 'Thinkin' this is the best day of my life right now." Michael wasn't lying. This really was the best day of his life.
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Jonathan was relieved that Michael didn't seem to mind his crappy joke and Michael just made it even funnier. Jonathan laughed even more before he eventually calmed down. They were now at Michael's bike and Jonathan was trying not to panic. On the outside, he was forcing a grin on his face and he was pretending to be calm and cool. On the inside, his mind was in meltdown mode. However he shook his head and he threw away his negative emotions into the back of his mind. Think positive, Jonathan, think positive.
Jonathan took the helmet from Michael and he gripped onto it more tightly. He couldn't breathe. Did Michael really say that to him? Did he? He almost suddenly dropped the helmet right there. He didn't know what to say. He was pretty speechless after Michael's words. Jonathan were really happy to hear Michael saying that to him. But he was also afraid. What if things end badly with their first date? Things would not go back to normal between them. Jonathan would possibly avoid seeing Michael out of shame and embarrassment.
Jonathan opened his mouth to speak. "I..... Wow...." That was all that came out of his mouth. This was harder that he thought. Why couldn't he speak? Okay. He had to try again.
Jonathan cleared his throat and he put the helmet on. Okay, he just needed to talk. Come on, Jonathan. "....I'm happy that you said that." He whispered quietly and he smiled at Michael gently. "Let's go and make this the best day ever for the both of us!"
Jonathan took the helmet from Michael and he gripped onto it more tightly. He couldn't breathe. Did Michael really say that to him? Did he? He almost suddenly dropped the helmet right there. He didn't know what to say. He was pretty speechless after Michael's words. Jonathan were really happy to hear Michael saying that to him. But he was also afraid. What if things end badly with their first date? Things would not go back to normal between them. Jonathan would possibly avoid seeing Michael out of shame and embarrassment.
Jonathan opened his mouth to speak. "I..... Wow...." That was all that came out of his mouth. This was harder that he thought. Why couldn't he speak? Okay. He had to try again.
Jonathan cleared his throat and he put the helmet on. Okay, he just needed to talk. Come on, Jonathan. "....I'm happy that you said that." He whispered quietly and he smiled at Michael gently. "Let's go and make this the best day ever for the both of us!"
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((Toxie give me the okay to try to finish this memory thread up. So I might just do a quick wrap-up of how their date went.))
And so the two of them went on their date. Like Michael said, he did get the popcorn and it was the sweet flavour as Michael knew that he didn't like the salted kind. They watched the movie Nightcrawler but they also kept giving each other some shy glances. Both of them weren't really sure what to do on a first date. Michael also did that cliché of putting his arm around Jonathan's shoulder when he yawned halfway through the movie. They also had a good laugh at some of the scenes. Jonathan couldn't believe that everything was going great with Michael. He resisted the urge to kiss Michael near the end of the movie as he didn't want to ruin the date. Maybe he was just being too paranoid. He didn't know that it would go badly after they hadn't left to go to where Michael had parked his bike.
Jonathan was smiling happily as he had asked if they would go out on another date together again. But Michael immediately had told him no and said that it maybe better if they just stay as friends for now. Jonathan's heart felt like it had been crushed to pieces and he felt deeply hurt. He realized what it meant to be hurt by the person that you loved the most? It wasn't some silly crush that he had on Michael. Jonathan thought that it was real. But.... if Michael just want to go back to being friends then Jonathan had to deal with it even with a broken heart. He quietly said okay and they rode on the bike in silence. He didn't even know that Michael only refused to go on a second date because he was too nervous.
Once they got to Jonathan's house, Jonathan watched as Michael drove off with a quick goodbye and Jonathan turned to glance at his home. The date had been wonderful but things had ended on a bad note. How could he even face Michael at school tomorrow? He couldn't..... He feels too hurt and embarrassed. So he was going to stay away from Michael for a while.
((Jonathan Gulley and Michael Crowe continued elsewhere))
And so the two of them went on their date. Like Michael said, he did get the popcorn and it was the sweet flavour as Michael knew that he didn't like the salted kind. They watched the movie Nightcrawler but they also kept giving each other some shy glances. Both of them weren't really sure what to do on a first date. Michael also did that cliché of putting his arm around Jonathan's shoulder when he yawned halfway through the movie. They also had a good laugh at some of the scenes. Jonathan couldn't believe that everything was going great with Michael. He resisted the urge to kiss Michael near the end of the movie as he didn't want to ruin the date. Maybe he was just being too paranoid. He didn't know that it would go badly after they hadn't left to go to where Michael had parked his bike.
Jonathan was smiling happily as he had asked if they would go out on another date together again. But Michael immediately had told him no and said that it maybe better if they just stay as friends for now. Jonathan's heart felt like it had been crushed to pieces and he felt deeply hurt. He realized what it meant to be hurt by the person that you loved the most? It wasn't some silly crush that he had on Michael. Jonathan thought that it was real. But.... if Michael just want to go back to being friends then Jonathan had to deal with it even with a broken heart. He quietly said okay and they rode on the bike in silence. He didn't even know that Michael only refused to go on a second date because he was too nervous.
Once they got to Jonathan's house, Jonathan watched as Michael drove off with a quick goodbye and Jonathan turned to glance at his home. The date had been wonderful but things had ended on a bad note. How could he even face Michael at school tomorrow? He couldn't..... He feels too hurt and embarrassed. So he was going to stay away from Michael for a while.
((Jonathan Gulley and Michael Crowe continued elsewhere))